I like to think I’m quite a self aware person. I think about my responses and behaviour, I analyse them, I relate them to my emotions and try to change them if I feel they could be better. I am quite proud of how insightful I can be about myself and take it as a positive result of my years of maudlin adolescent introspection.
Despite my self awareness, however, I do lack a similar insight into the actions of others. My social skills are fine in terms of being able to relate to people on a daily basis. I think I’m generally quite a likeable person and I always try to be a “nice” person. In fact, I think that is my problem: I always give people the benefit of the doubt until they prove me wrong.
Considering the amount of times I have been proved wrong, you would have thought I would have become cynical about human nature. But I never learn!
I didn’t start at school assuming everyone would be my new best friends. But I did assume they would all be decent human beings. One person has proved me wrong already by inviting me down the pub whilst complaining about my teaching skills behind my back. Thankfully no one else at school agrees with that particular diagnosis of my abilities.
But when will I ever learn?!